I absolutely love music, and everything related to it. From singing, to playing an instrument, or to even just listen to a song being played – I love it all. Music has always been one of those things that I have felt that God gave to me as a gift.
Unfortunately, music also tends to scare me – stupid, I know. But it’s one of those things that I don’t want to mess up by trying to play a song on the piano (that’s the one instrument that I’ve learned, and am still learning, to play), or even trying to sing a song, and not singing it well due to lack of “skill”.
I love to sing and I love to play the piano, but it isn’t something that I necessarily jump at the opportunity to do whenever there is a need. Why? Because it makes me very uncomfortable. Here is where we become a little closer, as I share a slight “struggle” of mine with you: I am still learning to not compare my voice, and piano playing skills, with singers/worship leaders/pianists whom I admire so much. However, God is SO dope!
Just in the last two months, I have found myself in many opportunities to sing. One, because I am part of the worship team here at the YWAM Madrid base. Also, I’ve had other moments where people have asked me to sing during other opportunities here at the base. Not only have I been singing more, but I’ve also been open to opportunities to play the “keys” again, in my own quiet time, as I have managed to keep this on the “low”. God is so good! He knows my heart and continues to push me out of my comfort zone, so that I can do that which I truly enjoy doing, because He loves to see me and hear me doing so. But when He pushes me out of my comfort zone, He has remained with me the entire time.
When I sing, I do so for the Lord. When I play, I do for the Lord. He loves to listen to me sing and play the piano. I believe He created me to sing, to praise Him, to use my voice to reach the lost. I know comparing myself to others, and feeling incapable is merely a lie, so I continue to fight those lies with His truth. I will use my lips to glorify Him, all the days of my life.